...conversations

It's been awhile. Been so very busy lately with the online stuff and part time jobs etc etc. Takes up about 6 hours of my day. Im a morning person so I like to do work in the morning to ease up in the afternoon. All these were new to the kids, especially Alyssa. Although Im just a meter away from her, she wants me to be playing and talking with her still. 2 weeks ago this was how it went:

She: Mommy why do you have to work on the computer?
Me: It's my chance to have money to buy you extra stuff honey...
She: Awwwww...but you always take so long. I want you to sit beside me.
Me:...I could buy you more toys...food, cloths. Stuff like that.
She: Ohhhhhhhhhh...
Me: Besides it's in dollars honey (laughs)
She: Okay...you can go on working. (giggles) I like toys, Powerbooks mommy?
Me: sure honey. See, mommy's been able to give you extra stuff lately, right?
She: Ah-a (nods) I like toys mommy.
Me: I know honey.

(I work for 3 hours more before lunch)

And this was yesterday:

She: Mommy, I think you have to stop working.
Me: but why? I wont have money anymore...
(silence)
She: Why?
Me: (i give the same explanation as 2 weeks ago)
She: But I dont need more toys, dresses Powerbooks
(I stop working and face her)
(she sobs)
She: I dont need more toys. I have enough toys already. I want you to stop working and be with me mommy (hugs me).

I stopped working and played with the kids the rest of the day. although I injected the importance of me doing a bit a part time stuff in our conversations. I worked that night when both kids were asleep already.